Summer Cruel

by Matracia

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released May 3, 2019

written & performed by dylan matracia
produced & engineered by dan foley
mastered by joey fernandez
recorded at big honker studios (bushwick, brooklyn)

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Matracia Brooklyn, New York

Matracia is the project of Brooklyn-based songwriter Dylan Matracia. Combining a modern electronic sound with a folk-music background, his work was born during the early stages of Matracia’s journey to sobriety as an intimate look at the struggles of addiction and anxiety as a queer person. ... more

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Track Name: 00
I never felt so lonely as when I wake up next to you
Track Name: Summer Cruel
I don’t know if I will ever show
What my heart wants deep down below
Its true that I am afraid of love
I’ll draw you close just to speak in tongues

His body heat felt sweltering
Or so I dreamed in my wet defeat
Will I be stuck in my own damn mind?
I’ll draw first blood just to run and hide

Hey summer cruel
I wish that I could start anew

The sun will rise on the darkest day
Light floods my room through the window pane
Pull the shutter tight or open the door
I don’t wanna be in this house no more

Hey summer cruel
I wish that I could start anew
Track Name: In My Head
Sometimes I tell myself that I hate myself
And I go through it in my head I go down right on through it
Yeah

I often drink into excess I get scared ‘bout sober sex
I go through it in my head shut down and abuse it
Yeah Woah

Wake up with pain in my head wake up in another’s bed
Clothes strewn across the floor he asks watcha in for?
Yeah

Some things better left unsaid morning brings a bitter end
When the spirit flows through you and then you have to come to
Yeah Woah

And it all feels the same
To drink and shift the blame
What difference does it make
When you’re numb at the end of the day?
Track Name: Slow
you are searching for your jock
in my bedroom where we got lost

pay attention to my face
when we go to our secret place

i am wavering that dotted line
i could cum now or give you time

do you feel it when we're alone?
maybe baby we should take it slow

take it slow
Track Name: Ash & Smoke
forest fire starting in your back yard 
ash and smoke you hold it close in your arms 
i don’t have to warn ya it’ll be here soon 
i don't wanna be there when you come to 

take another swig of your pbr 
pull a chair up too and light a cigar 
even water knows not to fuck with you 
i don’t wanna be there when you come to 

drunk and rolling 
why don’t you go and take another picture 
hearts a foldin’ 
I can’t tell if I am with ya 
time is stolen 
I can’t hear a word you say 
I was hoping, today 

I don’t wanna be there when you come to
Track Name: Cup of Tea
I am floating on my back inside your cup of tea 
you don’t know about the monster you made inside of me 
he appears inside the mirrors littered in my mind 
i begin to see his skin slither over mine 

i roll over as the boulder hidden in your shoe 
indisposed the pain is slow but cuts clean through 
filled with blood you have become the anchor and the ship 
on your knees you beg me please to the cracking of the whip 

but i don’t wanna lose another friend 
but i don’t wanna go to hell and back again 
but I don’t wanna lose another friend 
but I know I am not heaven sent 

I am waiting in the shadows cast by your red truck 
life ain’t fair we both declare but it is not enough 
these scars are deep lets wait and see if one day they will shine 
i begin to peel the skin crusted over mine 

but i don’t wanna lose another friend 
but i don’t wanna go to hell and back again 
but I don’t wanna lose another friend 
but I know I am not heaven sent